The Woman in the Mirror

The Woman in the Mirror

My emotions are running in different directions,

I'm unable to put my finger on the uneasiness that I feel.

You have pulled me close telling me that you love me, only to push me away,

I reach out to you, wanting to love you, only to be rejected once again.

These mixed emotions are causing me distress,

I try to find comfort as I reach for more junk food.

Only to find disgust looking back at me in the mirror,

I have quit smoking in hopes that you will love me again.

Changes I've made, but all seem to be in vain,

The person I see in the mirror just isn't me.

She is someone that I just can't be,

She has lost her hope, her zest for life.

Who is this strange woman, I see in my mirror?

How did she take away what once was me?

When did this strange woman slip into my life?

What has happened to the person that I used to love?

Tears fall from eyes that once were mine,

I search for a part of me that I can hold onto.

What happened to all of my confidence?

When did it all slip away?

Is it possible for me to find myself once again?

How can I be slender, when she won't leave me alone?

Who is this woman that has invaded my home?

I can see the sadness in eyes that once were mine!

I hate the mirror in front of me; it is so cold,

It makes me look fat as well as old.

The woman that stands there before it is not I.

So if I break this mirror then maybe I'll be set free.

But if not, then what will become of the person I used to be?

Will I be trapped here for all eternity?

Or will I find the strength to fight my way back?

I glance at the mirror, and there I see, a very hopeful me.